I am tired..whew. I have been out of the house lately and it feels good. lol..my whole teenager years i spent it behind closed doors and with an open book..but now that i am on a two month break of school..im just livin..till i am "sent" to school. If i do go to school it would be awesome! because i would be out of the house and doing my own thing. I will miss my love but i know that she will follow me wherever i go. I think this relationship has been one of my smoothest one..and my gf says the same too. Like we have both been experiencing hard relationships that had a whole lot of fighting and crap..nd now..its simple. A little too easy..as what my gf would say. But, i think its for the better..but i hope that she doesn't get bored with me. :/ that would suck..cuz i dont think that i would get bored with her. She said that she wants me to be me..well the me that i keep on telling her about. But, i honestly don't know what happened to that old me..i think that i buried it with my last relationship..but my gf says that she wants me to be that controling amanda..nd the fun amanda. I'm opening up all the doors but i keep on drawing blanks. But, i am comfortable around her..no doubt about that. I think that she wants our simple life spiced up..a bit with a fun/controling amanda that i use to be. haha..im boring now. :/ Well my controling part is coming up a lil..i made my gf stop saying certain things around me..mwhaha ha..*cough* ha..lol..but idk..i don't think she wants to see the old me..the mean..me. the amanda that everybody loves to hate..^_^.

ja ne